Yesterday, I was informed that my job position was no longer needed. So next Friday, I will officially be unemployed with one month until my wedding day. Though not my ideal situation (“Oh my gosh! I would LOVE to be jobless as I start my new life with my husband!” – Said no one ever), I am so incredibly thankful.
For those who know me well, you know how the past 2 years were arguably the hardest of my young life. I was struggling with crippling anxiety which required counseling and medication. I would wake up every morning with a pounding chest and racing heart, crying out to the Lord for rest. The Lord provided and I was taken off medication in July of last year. Through that rough season, the Lord taught me that even though I’m scared, even though I don’t know what the future holds, HE is good. He has a plan for me that is far better than my own. He equipped me, through His word and His people, with skills to manage my strong desire to control the people and situations around me. So now, with the blow of being let go resting heavy on my heart, I feel so incredibly blessed because I now look toward the future with hope and with peace. The Lord is with me and has a plan for me and my future.
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” – 1 Peter 5:10
Will the future be hard? Possibly. Will the future be scary? Sometimes. Will the future be unknown? Absolutely. But the Lord is faithful and I have no doubt in his goodness and in his plan.