Give me a Revelation

Give me a revelation
Show me what to do
‘Cause I’ve been trying to find my way
I haven’t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without you

My life has led me down this path that’s ever winding
Through every twist and turn, I’m always finding
That I am lost again
Tell me when this road will ever end

I don’t know where I can turn
Tell me, when will I learn
Won’t you show me where I need to go
Let me follow your lead
I know that it’s the only way that I can get back home

-excerpt from Revelation by Third Day

I heard this song come on the radio the other day and related so much with the words. I know every college senior out there can understand the stress and anxiousness these past months have brought upon us. This is the moment we’ve spent our lives training for. The moment where we take all the years of schooling, all the AP tests, all the hours of tutoring, all the internships, and all the applications and knit them together into resume in an attempt to find a job. If you’re like me, you spent your life focusing on making yourself desirable to a firm. I’ve had 5 internships, worked my way through college, and networked like crazy in hopes that the company of my dreams would find me, hire me, and all my problems would be solved. After dipping my feet into the business world I have discovered a very important thing: your job doesn’t define you and won’t make you happy. However, having a job is a necessary evil. We need it to make money (and in my case, to pay off my school loans) but it can drain the life of us. My career hunt has been an interesting one. I was faced with two choices: stay at my current job with an unstable paycheck but a fun job and atmosphere or accept a position the CBRE Wheel Program for a year which featured a stellar financial package but would make me hate my life. I kept praying that God would tell me what to do. I’ve learned that my plans are never as good as His are. I’ve gotten to the point in my life where I trust that God knows best, however, I still am faced with decisions. It is extremely stressful not knowing what decision is the one God wants you to pick. After praying for months and seeking biblical council with my amazing small group and parents, I received an e-mail saying that I had been rejected from the Wheel Program (though I did make the top ten out of 1,000!). I was so relieved to have God make such an obvious statement in my life.  I finally had some direction. I would continue working at my current job trusting that God would provide for me financially (which he has in the form of a surprise scholarship!) and in the meantime, be open to any career opportunity that came my way. I applied to a couple things but nothing really spoke to me. Nothing caught my interest. Then, out of the blue, I received a phone call from a company asking to interview me. I’ve recently been lazy and unexcited about these phone calls, but without thinking, I instantly agreed and scheduled an interview. While in the parking lot, I prayed that if God wanted me to take this job that he would give me complete peace about it and that I would have no reservations. I left the interview with such a sense of peace, joy, and a second interview scheduled! Finally a position that sounded appealing and that provided a financial package that was stable. I went to work after the interview and found out that I not only have 5 potential clients but am being introduced to Dallas as bigInk’s new associate, which is awesome. Then the anxiousness set in. Once again, I am faced with a fork in the road with two different paths for me to choose. I would be content with either position. I just want to know which one is the one God wants me to take. I need a sign! I need a revelation (see what I did there?)! I really haven’t got a clue. As much as I feel like God is being silent on the matter, I do know these things to be true: I know He has a plan for me (Jeremiah 29:11), I know that He can and will provide (Matthew 6:25-34), and I know that He loves me (John 3:16). These are the truths I am clinging to as I await for His plan to unfold. And it is a comfort to know that I am not alone in my feelings and my worry. We’re all traveling down a road to somewhere. I guess I have to keep reminding myself that it is OK to not have a plan. Life is a grand adventure. Enjoy the ride!

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